Hey there friend how are you? I have been thinking about my kids and there mental heal lately. I watch them and I see so many similarities in them from me when I was young. I have no regrets or wish for things in my life to have been different. I made it through by the grace of god. I know I would not be the woman I am if I had not lived my life as I did. I also have a lot of faith in god to protect and be there guiding my kids paths. But it does bother me knowing I passed on to them something that is so difficult to control, handle and understand in life.
They did not ask for this I give this to them. It almost feels like a curse my mom give me and now I give it to them. But a lot has changed since my grandmother and my moms struggle and even mine. They was not allowed to discuss or heal and even me for 25 years of my life shared the same ways. I know how to get help now and I know many things that help with healing and maintaining our mental health. But I feel so deeply in my heart that it is just not fair to them but I know I have to get past that and give them the chance and opportunity that I never had.
I made many wrong choices and bad mistakes in my life but I own them. I have changed so much. Becoming a mother was and is my greatest accomplishmenr and also being sober and finding the lord. I want to tell any mother who struggles with her mental health you can be thst awesome mom your kids need we just had a harder road and more to teach our kids but we can do it, we too deserve to be mom. But lets try and give them the chance we did not have. Till next time